the following are previous posts i refuse to just let loose
in cyberspace blackhole. cut and paste babies coming through...
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an alanis track that's close to my heart... and spirit.
I am the harm which you inflict
I am your brilliance and frustration
I'm the nuclear bombs if they're to hit
I'm your immaturaty and your indignance
I am your misfits and your praised
I am your doubt and your conviction
I am your charity and your rape
I am your grasping and expectation
I see you averting your glances
I see you cheering on the war
I see you ignoring your children
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And I love you still
And I love you still
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I am your joy and your regret
I am your fury and your elation
I am your yearning and your sweat
I am your faithless and your religion
I see you altering history
I see you abusing the land
I see you and your selective amnesia
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And I love you still
And I love you still
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I am your tragedy and your fortune
I am your crisis and delight
I am your profits and your prophets
I am your art, I am your bytes
I am your death and your decisions
I am your passion and your plights
I am your sickness and convalescence
I am your weapons and your light
I see you holding your grudges
I see you gunning them down
I see you silencing your sisters
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And I love you still
And I love you still
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I see you lie to your country
I see you forcing them out
I see you blaming each other
And I love you still
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And I love you... still.
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bethany marble
2:50 PM
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happy one year and ten months. wab u! mwah
bethany marble
2:41 PM
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YM + squidballs = new post. go figure.
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the cursed blogger that i am who cant bring herself to post and instead eavesdrop
on her own page just to visit her links finally got to her senses today.
quoting ruthie: "... nung isang taon pa yung post mo eh" ue me. argh! im a
blogspot disappointment. drama queen mode on.
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for the love of ruthie... an attempt to get the blog rolling again. cut and paste...
one step at a time baby.
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excerpts from the pillow chronicles: luna lover in earth's maria.
[edited] [ruthie dont worry]
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silentandstatic: binaha nga pla kame
silentandstatic: kse maaga kme
silentandstatic: kase sa pagkakaalam ko may shoot ata
pillow: nakows... eto na po ang drama....
silentandstatic: oo no!
silentandstatic: bakit ala ka don?
silentandstatic: uhmpf!
silentandstatic: gusto ko khet baha nandun ka
silentandstatic: hehe
silentandstatic: tangina hanngang tuhod ang nilusong ko
silentandstatic: wala akong masakyan
silentandstatic: tumawid ako putang bk...
silentandstatic: goldilocks
silentandstatic: pati sa may mercury sa dulo para maghanap ng quiapo ilalim
silentandstatic: syempre pa wala...
silentandstatic: lakad uli sa baha
silentandstatic: punta espana naman
silentandstatic: nagpapagod ako no?
pillow: lols... trapik sa coastal... at nagdadasal na kami na sana ala nang
pasok...
silentandstatic: parang nagsasightseeing pa tangina baha na nga
silentandstatic: mukha akong tanga
silentandstatic: at puta nakauwi ako 6...
pillow: hehehe,,, parang basahan ba? talaga? nagpunta ka kina enad?
silentandstatic: hellooo??? 9 palang nasa uste na ko tos 6 pm ako nakauwi.
silentandstatic: shheeeeeeetttttttt
silentandstatic: tinawagan ko enad sabi nya sundo daw niya ako
silentandstatic: hellooo? ayoko nga. e di susugod din siya sa baha? dont like
silentandstatic: at ang sabi ng gago...
pillow: hehehe.... kasalanan mo naman pala nagpapakabayani ka
pillow: hehehe
silentandstatic: o cge ingat ka na lang...
silentandstatic: may birthday dito
silentandstatic: daan ka
silentandstatic: HELLOOO???????
silentandstatic: basahan ako basahan
pillow: sino me birthday?
silentandstatic: tos papaharapin mo ako sa buong angkan nyo ng amoy
silentandstatic: leptospirosis
silentandstatic: *syempre la amoy yon
silentandstatic: *yung tita nya may birthday
pillow: hahaha
silentandstatic: at sa lahat ng kakupalan sa mundo
pillow: sana dinalhan ka man lang ba ng cake?
silentandstatic: pagsakay ko ng bus may mga hinayupak na kupal
pillow: hehehe,,, c gab me pasalubong na brownies nung tuesday,,, kaya lang
baha eh
silentandstatic: i was trying to sleep...at
silentandstatic: NASIKO AKO
silentandstatic: putangina talaga
silentandstatic: i could have turned them into pig ears right there and then
silentandstatic: argh!
silentandstatic: wawa ako sobra
silentandstatic: para akong highschool na nastuck sa bus ng magfield trip sa ilocos
silentandstatic: i was feeding on ensaymada and pringles the whole time
silentandstatic: basahan...
silentandstatic: basahan...
silentandstatic: after nya ko nasiko syempre nag sorry sya.
silentandstatic: then lumabas na ang lahat ng kojologan
pillow: ilang oras ka sa bus? malalim ba talaga ang baha?
silentandstatic: "pare kaw tlaga style mo luma" "parang manununggab ka a!"
silentandstatic: and the winner
silentandstatic: *malalim ang baha... the scene was like...uhm... all vehicles in
manila trying to worm through esquinita's eskinita
silentandstatic: "PARE MALAPIT YUN SA ANO AH..."
silentandstatic: sa ANO? SA BOOBS KO?
pillow: hahaha
silentandstatic: kuuppppaaaaallllll
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where's your ruby slippers when you need it?
bethany marble
2:17 PM
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saturday
if only it's not a sin to kill someone, my brother would be dead by now. i swear. don't
act too all-knowing because as far as i know you are the biggest loser in the world.
and you will be that way forever. bozo!
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bethany marble
8:07 AM
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friday
leidy just asked me who i'm in a fight with this time. MY MUSE. this is what greek
literature did to me. all this discussion on elementals giving inspirations led me to
believe that i do have my own muse. someone, something who apparently is
m-i-s-s-i-n-g. how do i know that? because i've lost my thing for writing. that "thing"
- was it even there from the start? i don't know either. basta. parang walang sense
lahat. parang walang depth. hirap na hirap na ako.
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now... i have thought of possible things that may have happened to her. (i can feel
that she's a she.) here are my top 5.
1. she clicked on that black rectangular key and exasperated to deletemyblog
dimension.
2. she has gone fishing and was eaten by a whale who got caught by illegal japanese
fishermen
in the pacific. ha! sardines!
3. she got lost on the way back and ended up being a sex slave in a korean
prostitution ring.
(what's with this azn thing?)
4. she went with leidy and inspired her to make a blog of her own. click it honey.
5. ewan... la no maisep.
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here kitty kity!
bethany marble
4:29 AM
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thursday
punyeta nasaan ka na ba? ang tagal tagal ko ng naghihintay di ka pa din bumabalik.
naligaw ka na siguro. uhmpf! o baka naman sumama sa iba. di pwede yon noh!
kaya balik... bumalik ka na dito. promise di na kita aawayin. sisisihin. love naman
kita eh.
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p.r.a.m.i.s.
bethany marble
4:16 PM
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tuesday
" i will never see the sky the same way and i will learn to say goodbye to yesterday
and i will never cease to fly if held down and i will always reach too high cause i've
seen... twilight"
- twilight/vanessa carlton/be not nobody
bethany marble
7:45 PM
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tuesday
dumaan ako sa seven eleven kanina para bumili ng isang rim ng bond paper.
pagpasok ko nakita ko yung bata. madungis siya. madumi. punit-punit ang damit
at naka-paa. may hawak siyang bente pesos. nakatayo siya sa harap ng isang
shelf na punong-puno ng laruan. patingin-tingin siya na parang namimili. ano kaya?
laser gun? plastic na sundalo? hawak-hawak niya ang mga ito na parang
nagiinspection. mas maganda kaya ito? o ito? naawa ako. hindi ko kayang tignan.
umiwas ako at nagtago sa likod. pagsilip ko nakita ko siyang papalayo na.
naglalakad papalabas na walang bitbit kahit ano kung hindi ang pinagninilayan
niyang bente pesos. ang putang inang bente pesos na hindi nakabili ng kahit ano.
dahil. hindi. kasya.
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samantalang ako. may dalawang daan para sa papel. para lang sa putang inang
papel.
bethany marble
1:19 PM
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wednesday
HOY! HOY! HOY! WHAT THE HECK IS THIS?!?!
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"Congrats! In your life, you'll have sex with 6 people! Including the 1 you've already
had sex with, that makes 5 new lovers!
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The info on your 5 future sex partner(s):
4 of them will be female
1 of them will be male
And you will actually love 1 of them!
You have a hard time deciding between love and lust.
(sex test / www.thespark.com)
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teka teka teka...ayoko. ayaw. di ako payag. ulit. UUUULLIIIITTTTTTTTTTTTT!
bethany marble
8:48 AM
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jan... lam ko nandyan ka... somewhere. hello and welcome to my blog! everyone
greet her!
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***happy birth-month janjabu! yehey! wab u!
bethany marble
8:22 AM
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ooopppsss
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turned out blogsnob won't post my add either. hehe. after what i said about
patweeccciiiiaaaa the unfriendly bitch, i can't blame them. har har.
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haaayyy.... kakapagod pala mamulitika. kathy the not-so-people-person had to
take the back seat today at school to get fellow pen pushers to sign the freaking
petition. and im doing this because
of you ben. for you. so...
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DIE.
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went to enad's house today to share duty free blessings. hehe. brought some
chocolates for them
and was surprised to have enad meet me with "buntis ka daw."
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WHAT?! i texted him earlier bout how bad i felt (was dizzy in an im-gonna-vomit-
any-minute-now kinda way) his tita was able to read it first so she asked him if i
was preggy. "buntis ba si kathy?""ba't nahihilo at nasusuka" "ba't may + c?"
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BWWWWWAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHAHAHAHAHAHA
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hindi lahat ng nasusuka ay naduduwal. there's a thin line that separates the two
(one that is hopefully a single-line). and tita ning... what i texted was =C. a sad
face. you know... emoticon. she was probably in denial kya kung ano-ano na
naiisip nya. kami naman ni enad syempre
tawa lang.
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nope. im not pregnant. im just... fat. +C
bethany marble
8:20 AM
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tuesday
PATRICIA GAILE COTAOCO. YOU ARE SO DEAD.
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I WILL KILL YOU TOMORROW. AM GONNA RIP YOUR HEAD OFF AND FEED
THE REST OF YOUR CARCASS TO THE HETEROSEXUAL COMMUNITY. YOU!
YOU! YOU! BITCH!
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iyak ako... uhm..uhmpf! why didnt you tell me you friggin bitch! tangina. dahil sa
pagsisikreto mong ito magpapakatibo na talaga ako.
GRRRRR!
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bethany marble
7:36 AM
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monday
HILARIOUS! HILARIOUS! HILARIOUS!
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pammy... i should have checked this out months ago! it's so funny!!! rex navarette
is a god. hehe.
everyone join maritess in her adventure! click on my linkee below : )
bethany marble
5:47 PM
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it's our one year and nine months luna-versary (as ruth would put it). enad dropped
by around late afternoon and contrary to earlier posts, i ended up cooking something
this time. i was halfway to pasta perfection when he arrived and being the cooking
master boy himself, finished the cooking for me. we had the house to ourselves so
*bleep *toot %^&%^^*(*(^&%%#$# &()*())_*_* ^%^&&%^&*(&*(*_)*()*)&^&*%#$%##^
&$^&%^&**(&*()&*()&*(&*()&()*&*^)*&*()&*(&*(&)*&*)(&*)&*&
*&*(&*(&*(&*(&%^^& *bleep *toot *bleep.
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enad... : ) thanks for washing the dishes. hehe. and oh, etchei! nyanya!
bethany marble
5:13 PM
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sunday
top ten reasons why i refused to let enad come by the house today...
1. he asked me at 8 am. too. damn. early.
2. potah naman. bumabagyo.
3. alang food. ayoko magluto. ayoko magluto ng carbonara. na naman.
4. di ko lang feel maging girlfriend ngayon
5. TIBO AKO NGAYON. TIBO.
6. i just want to be alone.
7. we need space and besides...
8. steph's coming over... <--- JOKE.
9. ayoko lang. basta.
10. he's most probably...only testosterone-driven.
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cge mahal... kaya mo yan.
bethany marble
5:23 AM
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wednesday
hindi ako sanay makipag-usap sayo ng ganito. na para bang nangangapa ng mga
salita. ng kahit ano na lang basta may mapagkwentuhan. dati naman kaya kong
sabihin sayo lahat. at sinabi ko. at sinabi mo. rin. pero ngayon parang ang hirap na.
ang hirap palang pagkasiyahin ng dalawang taon sa isang tawag. hindi magawang
makapagsing-abot kahit na iisang linya. ang dami-dami mong gustong sabihin pero
ang lalabas sa bibig mo... wala lang.
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bethany marble
1:13 AM
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tuesday
rain rain come and stay visit me another day. ha!
bethany marble
12:07 AM
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saturday
JANEL called.
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wala lang. he just had to tell me that classes were suspended. like it was a usual
thing to do. you know, to be calling everyone and be the bearer of good news. at 8 am.
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oh, and yesterday he texted. GAGO KA PAPATAYIN KITA. not exactly the kind
of message you want to receive from a close friend. so i texted back. "wrong send
ka ata. sana." then came a beep. "HINDI. para sayo talaga yon." so now he's angry.
he's fighting with me because i didnt tell him about my new number. "may phone ka
na pla at di ko alam. 'kaw ha ba't di mo ko text." belch.
but i did. only he didnt remember.
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sigh. from out of nowhere THIS.
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bethany marble
6:51 AM
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tuesday
finally.
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after consuming gazillion net hours configuring blogger technicalities - its finished. : )
signing up wasnt really difficult. in fact, i could have easily completed it in no time if
not for my attempt to alter its html template. yeah right... like what do i know about
that language anyway?!? but i did modify a couple of scripts and soon enough my
page got disrupted. like some greek characters were flashing on the screen.
everything was a mess. but i managed to rebuild it though... see.
my affair with html will not end here. i intend to learn all the shit that comes with it
- atleast while i still have the energy to actually sustain this spot.
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heck. i better.
bethany marble
7:19 PM